Initially, Zach was not going to come. He was going to stay home with Mason and go fishing. I was going to take Savannah and Gavin and my good friend, Michelle, was going to come with me too and also take the doula course. I started to think that this may be the last time Zach would be able to see his cousin, Andy, for a long time, and that he really should come with us too. I explained this to him and also that I wanted Mason to see Elyse, etc. He didn't immediately say okay and he wanted to come, but I knew he likely was going to end up coming and that made me happy. I did really want him to see his cousin and I also really wanted him to see where they live and go to church. Although seemingly coincidentally, it definitely was not, Leigh called me shortly after I talked to Zach about how he should come and said the same thing! I told her I would get him to come and I wanted him to come too. I went to Zach again and relayed Leigh and my conversation to him. He agreed that he should go.
So on Friday, Zach, the kids, Michelle, and I all started our trip to Harrisburg, PA. It was a pretty easy drive. It was just shy of 7 hours, which after many 15 hour drives to Texas, this was a breeze!
When we got there, we had to immediately drop Zach off at the church, Life Center Ministries, which is directly across from Andy & Leigh's house, because Zach was going to play in the band with Andy from 7-9pm for the 24 house of prayer. We dropped him off and went to the house to see Leigh & the kids. After eating a quick dinner and sweetly reuniting, we all drove over to the church together to worship and watch the guys play.
I was in awe and so moved at the 24 hour house of prayer. The presence of The Holy Spirit was so incredibly tangible in that room.
I looked up at my husband playing drums with the band and for the first time ever, he too looked moved while he was playing. He just had that look on his face like he was just taking it all in. I sat in a blissful state watching my kids dance around so sweetly with their cousins to the music and also watched a beautiful young girl dancing freely with her wrap to the music. It was so amazing to watch her be moved by the Spirit in that way and not care at all what anyone thought of her doing so.
When Zach and Andy's two hour segment was done and they and the rest of the band walked off, Leigh, Michelle, and I walked over to meet them. Zach just looked at me and said, "that was amazing!" I whole heartedly agreed. I told him I had never seen him appear so moved while he was playing. He said, "that's because I haven't. Those people were truly worshipping and they were worshipping in a way I have never experienced." I just smiled and felt immense joy. This was what I had been waiting for.
A little over a year ago, I encountered the presence of The Holy Spirit for the first time. I was in a dark place after my Mam-ma died and while in her church, I was surrounded by The Holy Spirit and His love. I realized right then and there that while I believed in God and knew more about God and the Bible than most people, I had strictly head knowledge and not heart knowledge. I had lived my entire life without encountering His Spirit, His Holy Spirit. My life was forever changed. (I will have to do a separate post with the story in its entirety later.) All this time though, I have been waiting for my husband to experience this as well. It was very evident to me that he was in the same place now that I had been in up until August 2013. He too believed in God and grew up learning about Him, but he did not know The Holy Spirit and that was very evident to me as his wife. I gently tried to talk to him about it several times and more importantly, I prayed for him constantly. I knew that it was going to take more than me gently bringing the issue up to him; it was going to take something supernatural.
All day Saturday, I was in my doula class with Michelle and Zach was with Andy & Leigh and all the kids. He worked on their heater some. They all picked me and Michelle up for lunch and I nursed Gavin during that time also. I tell you all this to point out how low key the weekend was for Zach. He picked Michelle and me up at 5 and we all went back to the house and ate dinner. After dinner, Zach made his famous cider that Leigh had requested he make long before we even actually made our way driving to PA. After putting the older kids to bed. we all sat down in the living room and talked while Leigh and I nursed our babies. They told us some amazing supernatural stories of things they experienced The Holy Spirit do while they were overseas in Nepal. We thoroughly enjoyed hearing all these stories and were in awe of what they had been fortunate enough to witness The Holy Spirit do. We decided to watch the movie The Holy Ghost together. Zach had to go outside and get his computer charger (we were watching it on the computer) and what happened next, coupled with the seemingly small, yet so supernatural, events that happened prior, changed Zach, my husband, forever.
I am going to paste his story that he wrote to Andy after we got home below, because I think it's important for my readers to read it from his point of view. I have edited and removed a few personal details of the message that were too personal and did not need to be shared. Everything else is exactly as he wrote it though.
I'm reading the book "The Forgotten God." Actually I'm listening to the audio book ($8 on audible) I am just blown away by how much I have missed out on all of my life! I have never felt the power of the Holy Spirit until this weekend. I have always thought it was impossible to walk in righteousness. I would pray and read my Bible but there was never a passion and fullness to my walk with God. I would inevitable just stop reading my Bible and I would stop praying altogether for months at a time because everything just seemed so pointless! I talked about my problems to a few people but none ever revealed the power of the Holy Spirit to me. I was told that I didn't understand the power of the Cross and that I didn't understand the love of God, which was partly true. But... The problem was that I have never understood the power of the Holy Spirit. I have only been taught that the Holy Spirit is like a conscience that tells us what we should and shouldn't do. I have always thought that if that is all that God gave us as a parting gift.... well.... It was LAME.
Over the past couple of months God has really been preparing me for this weekend. I have had a feeling that there was something more that I just didn’t understand. Brittani has been hounding me about my lack of passion about life, and my disinterest in God. It got me thinking more and more about God and trying to figure out what I was missing. I spent hours just trying to figure out what the missing piece was. I wasn't supposed to go with Britt this last weekend. I was going to go fishing with Mason all weekend. Brittani called me at work one day and told me that she thought I needed to go with her.... I wasn't happy. I told her I would think about it even though I knew in my heart that I needed to go. Then she said Leigh called and suggested that I should go too. I knew there was no getting out of it then! lol
In the days leading up to the trip I could feel God preparing me for something, but I didn't know what it was. I could just tell that It was going to be life changing. I don't know how I knew it, I could just feel it in my heart.
The night we played at the prayer meeting I was hesitant to chime in and play 1) because I was a little nervous and 2) I was just in awe of those ladies heartfelt worship. I could just see that they were communicating with their God. That was so different than what I am used to.
It all came together during our evening talks. God was using you to reveal the missing piece I have spent my life up to this point neglecting to see. I saw the true gift that God left behind for believers. It is so much more than a simple good angel on my shoulder telling me what’s right. There is true power in the Holy Spirit! I mean there is an overwhelming, life altering, and healing power in the Holy Spirit! It all makes perfect sense now!
(Background)
I have allowed the Devil to use some family drama as a tool to destroy me. I have never felt so much hate and bitterness. That hate and bitterness became my religion. I woke up with it and spent time with it all throughout the day. I even went to bed thinking about it. The devil had systematically removed every good thing in my life and replaced with so many evil things to the point that I sincerely didn’t think I could ever recover. I knew that evil was targeting me because every time I would start to climb out of my pit of sin he would hurl so much stuff at me that I would lose heart and fall back into the pit.
(Back to the story)
Right before we watched the movie “Holy Ghost” I was just floored. I could finally see the way that God intended my life to be lived. I could see how all of my hopelessness and bitterness could be remedied by living in the Spirit. It was so simple!
You asked me to go grab my computer cord out of the car. As I was walking to the door to go get my charger I was thanking God for revealing to me a completely new understanding of the world. I opened the door of your house and stepped outside. Every hair on my body stood on end. I could literally FEEL evil all around me. I stopped for a second and got enough balls to walk to the car. On the way to the car I could see a dark face out of the corner of my eye just floating with no body along side me. I got to the car and grabbed the charge and closed my eyes and the words you spoke minutes before came to my mind “We don’t focus on the darkness, we focus on the light.” I walked back to the house and I could still see that dark face following beside me. I kept saying, “we focus on the light, we focus on the light” over in my head. I opened the door and literally jumped in the house! The hairs on my body immediately relaxed! The powers of evil are useless against a house full of the Holy Spirit. I became SO acutely aware of the battle that we are fighting in.
Ephesians 6:12 “For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.”
I don’t know if you could tell, but after I came in to bring you the charger I was absolutely wigged out. I have never been so freaked out in my life. The chains of the devil had been broken, I was free, and the devil was pissed. It took me about 10 minutes to calm down enough to actually be excited. The knowledge of the Holy Spirit changed my life and the futures of my children., and that pissed off hell. I don’t think this is the last time satan will be pissed at me.
The last couple of days I have felt so filled with the Holy Spirit. In the past My experiences with God felt very fleeting, but This is different. There is no way to go back after you have seen and felt the Holy Spirits power.
I was watching Zach intently while we were talking and visiting with Andy & Leigh and I was filled with such joy because of what I saw. I knew he was filled with The Holy Spirit and I knew his heart and life were changing. When I heard about what happened when he went outside to get the charger, I was further reminded myself of how powerful The Holy Spirit is. For the forces of hell to feel threatened in such a way that they are going to physically send a demon on a failed attempt to attack him, the power of The Holy Ghost IS real. It is so eery and real to me that the house with all of us in it was off limits to hell and its demons. They could not enter because the Spirit was there and also dwelt within each of us inside. However, that did not stop it from lurking outside just waiting for Zach to come outside fragile and vulnerable, young in the sense of his relationship with The Holy Ghost. They were too late, however, and powerless against the power of The Holy Spirit that had recently taken residence inside of my husband. This attempted attack just made him further realize the true power of The Holy Spirit.
We went to church the next morning with Andy & Leigh and were again, just floored by the overwhelming, very tangible presence of The Holy Spirit in that place. Worship there was not a show, it was not about talents, it was not about anything but God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. They were worshipping in such a way that it was as if no one was in the room- just each person and their God. We worshipped God together in a way like never before that morning. We were both, along with so many others, absolutely consumed by The Holy Spirit.
At one point while we were worshipping, the young lady leading said, "lift your hands high up to the heavens and feel the power of The Holy Spirit run through you from your arms all the way through you." I described it later to Zach as an eery tingling feeling all the way from my fingertips that then traveled throughout my entire body. Zach described it as his whole body being on fire. A few seconds later that same lady said, "Do you feel that? That is the power of The Holy Spirit running through you." You may be wondering why the presence of The Holy Spirit was felt so heavily here and not in many other churches? The Holy Spirit was invited there, He was welcome there, He was desired there, He was BELIEVED in there. When church first began and the worship first started, that same lady said, "we invite The Holy Spirit into this place. We invite him to flood this entire place and consume each and every one of us." Literally, like clockwork, it was like a wave of energy ran through the building. That energy was The Holy Spirit Himself.
I am overwhelmed while writing this now by the power of The Holy Spirit and can literally feel Him running throughout my entire body. I know He is going to use this to bless someone or many, change someone's life or multiple people's lives, just as our's have been changed.
If you have never encountered the love of The Holy Spirit and His presence, ask yourself why? Are you somewhere that the Spirit is not welcome, is not invited, is not really even believed in or taken seriously? Sure you and those around you may "believe" that the Spirit exists, but like my husband, do you not really understand what The Holy Spirit is? I know we have been in MANY churches that the Spirit simply is NOT there. There are various reasons the Spirit may not be present in a church. Again, He may not really be welcome there, He may not have been invited into there, He may not be really sought out or desired by those there, etc. You may be thinking, The Holy Spirit is God, He can do anything; He does not have to actually be invited. You are right; He CAN do anything, but why would he want to come into a place where He is not invited or desired? Where the congregation thinks they do not need Him and that they are doing just fine the way things are? Why do you think when people go overseas they experience so many supernatural things that can ONLY be explained by the power of The Holy Spirit, but SO many people never experience those kinds of things over here in The West? Because those people over there are DESPERATE for Him! They want Him! They yearn for Him! We in the West, however, are so worried about people liking us and liking our church, being hip, being politically correct, etc. and we are not craving the power of The Holy Spirit in our lives! James 2:19 says, "Thou believest that there is one God; Thou doest well: The devils also believe, and tremble." Believing is not all there is! The demons believe and they TREMBLE at His name!! That is more than can be said for a lot of "Christians".
Once you truly encounter The Holy Spirit, you will know, because you will never ever be the same. When The Spirit consumes you, there is no going back. You just cannot go back to stagnation when you know that kind of power and love.
"Hope fills my soul
The love that You've shown
Bring refreshing like the rain
Peace floods my heart
I've known nothing apart
Apart from Your goodness, God
You are glorious
You are holy, holy
The heavens shout
You are worthy, worthy
Your love frees my soul
And fear has no hold
For You have broken the chains
Now joy fills my life
Your Spirit, Your Light
I'm undone by the kindness of Christ
You are glorious
You are holy, holy
The heavens shout
You are worthy, worthy
My soul cries out
You are holy, holy
The nations will shout
You are worthy, worthy
At the sound of our praise
The Heavens will shake
And the earth will move"
"Glorious"-Jesus Culture
The love that You've shown
Bring refreshing like the rain
Peace floods my heart
I've known nothing apart
Apart from Your goodness, God
You are glorious
You are holy, holy
The heavens shout
You are worthy, worthy
Your love frees my soul
And fear has no hold
For You have broken the chains
Now joy fills my life
Your Spirit, Your Light
I'm undone by the kindness of Christ
You are glorious
You are holy, holy
The heavens shout
You are worthy, worthy
My soul cries out
You are holy, holy
The nations will shout
You are worthy, worthy
At the sound of our praise
The Heavens will shake
And the earth will move"
"Glorious"-Jesus Culture
Watch the video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CkwE7SGZNV4
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